Coach Call: 6:51pm

We talked about my race plan, how I shouldn't have PR'ed my shakeout run, the importance of writing things down (or, I suppose, these days anyway, typing them out).

My biggest takeaway, and something I've felt deeply throughout this winter, is that we don't train for the race. We train for the training. What I have proven is that when I am dedicated enough, I can show up for myself 100%. In subzero temps. On days when I'm so depressed I spend the other 23 hours in bed with Mal. when my stomach hurts and I think I might throw up if I run.

And even on those days, there were times I walked away PR'ing. But that isn't the point either. Sure, it felt great in the moment, and proved that how I feel doesn't always reflect what I am capable of, but it wasn't the most important lesson.

What I was really teaching myself is that if I just SHOW UP on a consistent basis, my heart, my body, my mind, my sheer force of will, my deep unshakeable empathy for myself, and my indomitable spirit will get the job done. Every time.

Love you coach. Love you team. Thank you for helping me learn what I needed to know. 🫶